1 In you, Lord my God,
I put my trust.
2 I trust in you;
do not let me be put to shame,
nor let my enemies triumph over me.
3 No one who hopes in you
will ever be put to shame,
Have you ever been shamed? I have. How? When someone pointed out my fault in front of many others… Have you ever been ashamed? I have. When? When I realised I did wrong and had to say “I am sorry. I was wrong. Please forgive me.”
Today, I want to share my story in the light of David’s prayer:
I’m surprised that in many of his psalms, David mentioned shame in relation to his enemies. So here’s my story…
A little more than a year after my ‘shameful’ experience, the Lord revealed to me how He did not put me to shame. A couple of nights ago, a friend told me the story behind my story.
This friend recalled hearing my apology. (I could not even recall such a scene.) “XXXX, I’m sorry. I was wrong. Please forgive me.”
I remember though sending this apology that night in a text message.
XXXX told my friend that night, she cried and could not sleep because of what I said.
Even as I was not waiting for this revelation, it is such a comfort to know how the Lord did not put me to shame. David prayed about trust, hope and waiting on the Lord. Indeed, as I trusted and obeyed the Lord’s command to humble myself, God showed me:
No one who waits on Him will ever be put to shame.
It is not easy to be humble and meek like Jesus. Yet each time I think of how Jesus was silent before his accusers, whenever I remember Jesus’ humbling experience in the way of the cross even when He is sinless, who am I to be proud?
Dear Jesus, make me a servant, humble and meek. Let me lift up those who are weak. And may the prayer of my heart always be: Make me a servant, make me a servant today. Amen.